THE TURNING POINT

Back in 2010, I almost commit suicide due to personal problems, both at home and school. So I was in the toilet washing my face in the morning and then I saw some razor blades near the mirror and picked one up. Without realizing it, I almost cut my wrist but before it could touch my skin, I stopped and my hands were shaking. I put the razor blade back and get out of the house to get some fresh air (It was around 5.00 a.m at that time).

So I took one cigarette from my father's stash and start smoking while thinking of my life. For the next few days, I did the same thing until one day I realized that life isn't so bad. Other people have it worse. I learned to navigate through the problems and they became lesser and lesser. I think it was this point that turn into a loner who draws anime and manga sketches in class and barely interact with my classmates.

I think that's what started this whole 'Who gives a s**t' attitude and frankly if it wasn't for that simple change of heart, I would either be dead or at least a freaking who his cut his f***ing wrist.

Anyway, I almost forgot to say Happy New Year to anyone who even read this blog (highly unlikely though) because it's only has like 8 post or some thing. I hope you people have an enjoyable year this year and plan for 2014 (yeah right).

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"Depression is the inability to construct a future."
Rollo May

THE RETURN TO UMS

Before going to KK

It's been a few months since I updated my blog. I was too busy with my course nowadays. Two months ago, I returned to UMS to further my study and took the Food Science and Nutrition course. So far, I found that this semester a bit relaxing since it's only the first semester. 

In my dormitory

When I arrived to KK, I was hoping to get a ground floor room since I was too lazy to use the stairs all the times. Fortunately, I did get a ground floor room but what's more surprising is that my assigned room is just next to my old room back in the early days of my Foundation year. I'm also glad that my room mates accepted me despite the fact that all of them are Chinese. Oh well, I hope I can learn how to speak Mandarin because sometimes I just can't understand my room mates speaking to one another. 

One of my new friends,
Eric Desmond

Anyway, my classes already starts last week and my favorite class so far is the Islamic Civilization and Southeast Asian Civilization (TITAS) class because the lecturer is very open-minded and the way he speaks is also humorous. My least favorite class is none other than Organic Chemistry. Ugh! So many things to read and the reference book that the lecturer recommended to us is at least 7 cm thick. Not only that, the lecturer(I'm not going to mention his name, so let's just call him Mr. C) is too strict for my taste. The only thing I liked about him is the fact he speaks loud enough for me to hear him. But, I shouldn't judge him because I haven't known him long enough.

Now that the PTPTN is here, I wonder if what should I used it for since I haven't even touch the money yet. Maybe buy a new latop? But that is too wasteful. I need to to be frugal if I want to survive life in university. Well I'll think about that later since the money isn't going anywhere.

Okay! That's all I can write for tonight. Thank you for reading this boring post, not that anyone would actually read this crap anyway >.<

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"You start thinking the world is a certain way and forgetting that there's another world outside of the campus boundaries that has nothing to do with what is your world at the time."

- James Van Der Beek 

THE END DRAWS NEAR AND THINKING ABOUT THE DEGREE

I love my Foundation days

Syahfikrie, the Miku Maniac
aka My Room mate

It has been months since I last posted and now after almost a year studying in Universiti Malaysia Sabah taking the Foundation in Science course, my days as a foundation students is coming to an end this June. Thinking about it makes me sad because I learnt a lot from here and I hope I can still see my friends when taking the degrees. I've met so many types of people including Anime OTAKUS, one which happen to be my room mate, Syahfikrie, who's also one of the Miku Maniac out there *LOL* . Now, I'm feeling mushy about it because I have so many regrets here.

I've thought a lot about what degree should I choose and to tell you the truth, I will take any course except the one that has Maths in it. Hehe Just Joking :P.

I've decided to take the Science of Food and Nutrition course as my first choice, followed by Agriculture, Psychology and I haven't thought much about the last choice *Shrugs*.

Nowadays, I've noticed that I've becoming lazier and lazier as the days passed by and I don't blame it on anime. Ah look at the time! It's time for me to study Math *Tch!* because we have a test. Well it is mostly definition and theory stuffs *Sigh*. Well, that's all for my post tonight. Oyasuminasai, everyone! :D

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“Study without desire spoils the memory, and it retains nothing that it takes in.” 
- Leonardo da Vinci